Wednesday, July 16, 2008

More blessing Pictures

Amy took these pictures and she is just a genius with a camera. I made her do it right when we got back from the church and it literally took her all of 10 minutes to get such amazing and wonderful pictures that I will always cherish.

Thanks, Amy!

The many faces of Oscar

He is fat and happy! What a great baby he is. He sleeps well and when he is alert he is always looking around and smiling. He is so calm and really never cries unless I let him get too hungry. What a blessing little Oscar is!

Babies got blue eyes...

Those eyes, those cheeks, those lips, and if only you could see his little legs! This is one adorable kid!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

memories...light the corners of my mind.....

I saw this on a friend's blog and thought it would be fun! Please participate. I can't wait to see what people put here!

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.



Are you ever just overcome by emotion when you look at your children? Or perhaps your spouse? Or your friend? Or even just glad you have a car or a house?

I feel that way today. Right now my older boys are quietly playing together and Oscar is sleeping sweetly by my side. If only Ryan were not at camp this would be a perfect moment.

I was feeling a bit sorry for myself. I have had a difficult time adjusting to all the changes in life recently. My boys were all going through changes in moods and behavior due to all the newness here at home and I have had a hard time adjusting to their changes. I keep reminding myself of their tender little hearts and try to see things from their point of view.

Griffin seems to be doing a lot better. He was at first struggling. His language or lack of language was extremely frustrating for all of us but most of all for him. He was throwing tantrums and had a lot of pent up anger towards me. I think he was mad that I went away for so long and then brought back a baby. He would hit me and then start crying and want to cuddle with me. Talk about mixed emotions. He seems to have gotten over this and also his language is SO much better in the past 2 or 3 weeks. Amazingly better. This takes care of a lot of the problems.

Evan has been a bit defiant which is so unlike him. He seems to want any kind of attention but is unaware of what he is doing. He doesn't understand what he is feeling right now. I have tried to have more patience with him and remember how sensitive this little guy is. He asks me all the time just to hold him.

It has been tough having Ryan "away". This summer he is the director of a boy scout camp. The camp is about 10 minutes from our house and we see him daily but it just isn't the same. He isn't there for bath time or bed time or scripture reading or meal times. It is just hard, on all of us. We miss him terribly. I am having a difficult time with it so I can only imagine how tough it is on the boys. They love Daddy so very much.

I let a lot of things just simply slide when Oscar and I were in the hospital and then even when he got back. I just couldn't seem to find it in me to do the regular life stuff. I am finding it difficult to get back to normal. I crave that normalcy so badly right now. I know in a month or so I'll be able to spend more time getting things the way I want them and cleaning up the things that took a backseat but right now I feel a bit overwhelmed. There isn't anything huge, just life. Most days I am fine but I always have a running list. I try to just forget about them but the piling up makes me more crazy.

Ok, so this is sounding really a lot worse than I meant it to. I really just wanted to write about how even through all this craziness and life changing stuff I am just so grateful to have what I have. I know I have been so hugely blessed. I have wonderful, amazing, beautiful children and a supportive, hard working and worthy husband. I am surrounded by people who love and help me and we have a lovely home in a gorgeous little town.

Life is really good and I am glad I can realize this even when the moments may seem bad. That's really the blessing, to be ultimately content and happy even through the tough times.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Playing too hard.....

Poor little Griffin played so hard on Sunday with all his cousins that he literally fell asleep standing up! He just laid his head down on the footstool and was out! We carried him upstairs and he slept the whole way, poor little guy!

Blessing Day

Thursday, July 03, 2008

New template

Ok, so I want to use one of those cute templates you can download on so many sites but I'm nervous to lose all of my content or my sidebar info. How do you do that? I am not too tech savvy so I need this dumbed down for me people.


inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.

At times I suffer from short bouts of insomnia. Last night was one of these glorious nights. I was up until 11 or so when I went upstairs and fed little Oskie. He went to sleep but kept making a lot of grunting and stretching noises which kept me awake. I tried burping him and that seemed to help but then for some reason I could not sleep.

I think I slept for a couple of hours and then he woke up to eat around 3:30 and that was it. I laid in bed until 6 when I heard Griffin coughing. He has had a slight cold for the past few days and his cough gets nasty at night. I went and got him and tried to get him to sleep with me on the couch. It was pointless. He just wanted to play as soon as the new dose of medication kicked in.

So here I am, at what I consider to be the crack of dawn, writing a blog post and hoping that I will get through the day without passing out. Ugh.

I'm not fat for my height. I'm short for my weight.